Sunday, December 22, 2013

The Reason to Keep Going

Assalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

Right now, everyone around my age / semester / year in college is busy starting their final thesis to graduate. Whereas I'm still here, having the time of my own, still busy doing choir and mabit stuffs. Some people asked me, have I ever get bored doing the same things for these past few years? The answer is NO, I never get bored. Choir is the reason why I'm still coming to college, while Mabit is the thing that keeps me from drop myself out of college because it reminds me of how much I struggled to get university. Everyone is so eager to graduate from college while I'm here all alone, having my own dilemma. I've been in my 7th semester. Mom keeps saying that I should graduate next year, but the thing is... I don't know what am I doing. I've tried to find reason to continue studying the thing I never really interested, but as the time passed, I keep getting this feeling that what I'm doing is useless. I can't find any reason besides my Mom's order to go to college, get some diploma, and graduate soon, so the society will accept me. 

Well... does everyone go to college to get people recognize them, accept them, label them? Is it about judgement? Lucky them who actually get the chance to study the things they really want and like. A moment of silence for someone like me who need more extra reasons and courage to keep coming to college. I should be grateful, shouldn't I? And I am grateful, with my friends and organization, but not with my studying. But no matter what happen, I can't stop now, I'll try to graduate, not as soon as my Mom expect me to be, but soon. My brother said that I should enjoy college while it's last, either its classes or organization, so when I'm finally leaving, I can look back with no regrets. If I can't like what I'm studying, at least I can love what I'm doing while I'm here, and produce something. So, good luck to you who's struggling for your final thesis. Wish me luck too! :")

Anyway.... I don't need to graduate to wear those awesome uniforms, lol. I already tasted the feel of wearing these costumes. It felt hot actually, but it does make you look cooler haha.

Wassalamualaikum. Wr. Wb.

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